When i lose my hope..

people say that desperate is necessary..
we can learn anything or create anything from that..
but for me,
it feels like..
between black and white..
in the middle of nowhere..
i dont know what to do.. what to say? what to feel?
what to love? what to hate?
what to follow? what to unfollow?

what is life if life is just a way to survive?

i am desperate for change..

maybe i need to say a few prayers and HOPE for the best..